It feels a thousand years ago
I started on this daunting path
With shaking hands and wild eyes,
Still picking up the broken pieces of the aftermath.
What had felt like an impossible feat
Has already begun to come to pass
And the healing that seemed so far away
Came like a wave crashing over me so fast.
Once I accepted where I was
And stopped trying to control the entire game
I found that were I was, was enough
And my life was waiting there for me to come reclaim.
The part of me that’s hurt is still there
It just doesn’t sting so bad.
I’ve learned to trust myself again,
A self-love I’ve never had.
The fear still creeps up on me
every now and then,
It’s breath hot and sticky
breathing down upon my neck
But instead of curling up to hide
I look that fear right in the eye,
And tell it to back right off
Because I get to decide.
What is scary, what is dangerous,
What’s worth the adventure and the risk.
That anything life throws at me
Together my heart and mind can fix.
It’s a very scary war to wage,
The one inside your head.
It takes a special kind of brave to speak of your demons
To utter words that long have gone unsaid.
Anxiety, OCD, Depression
and so much more.
Just the tip of an iceberg of issues
That the world’s learned to ignore.
It’s time we change the stigma, shed a little light.
Mental illness does not make you weak.
It makes you very strong.
And it takes a very brave soul
to ask for help when things go wrong.
So, the woman who feels hopeless,
Or the man who feels so lost but is afraid to say
Are nothing short of warriors
Donning armor and walking into battle every day.
So, when you feel the weight crushing down upon your chest,
Remember both the bad and good are but fleeting states at best.
You will learn to cherish every emotion your heart has had and each lesson that life gave,
Once you take a risk to swim and learn to love to ride the wave.